They told me not to say The fault; It was all mine They told me not to say I am okay, its all fine They told me not to say The world is wrong from where I stand They told me not to say You will never understand They told me not to say Gods don’t walk this heathen earth They told me not to say It’s your choice to give a birth They told me not to say False truths my eyes can see They told me not to say I am thus and this is me They told me not to say We are slaves of silver linings They told me not to say Fallen stars don’t go out shinning They told me not to say There is no shepherd for this herd They told me not to say The sky don’t feel free for some old bird They told me not to say Love is a mirage of a migraine mind They told me not to say They light the lights to leave me blind They told me not to say Life can end between two thoughts They told me not to say Fate ends with a draw of lots
Will my silence be enough To let you know I am no more Will you shake your head and smile And be as you were before Will it be my laughter that you remember Decades later on a summer noon Will you ask why I never came back Or lament why I returned so soon Will my face be what you seek When thinking of things past Will you forget the first day we met Was the day that we met last Will these hands that once were mine Remain forever alone in memory Will you extend yours just to share Their shadow so I could be We Will my words ever be able to describe This ache that now I feel Will you break my heart each time You want your own to heal…
Camouflaged in the night Like outline of shredded trees I walked beyond the cliff with caterpillar footsteps Where Four Horses of Wind Stood grazing in the grove While the maiden with reins Having fallen in love With my absence, now looking up Laughed; the sound like hooves running in her throat, So I sat there in the center of the dying daffodils, On the eve; as rootless and trodden as any And listened to what the world has to say But sadly there were far too many; People talking about themselves, like children running circles around pillars asking: Why do silent halls echo? And closed eyes cannot see? As if I am a mirror to be mastered by their practiced soliloquy: No more, no more, my hollow mind; no more, For I weep for the thistle town burning by the shore Black windows watching the white horizon Coming closer for an embrace When the sun is cold in the night While the sea shapes the souls of sand The maiden sits beside me And whisper That the stars are dust from her hand O I see now, I see Myself on a mountain lying Alone upon the apogee To fall asleep with the sky As a pillow beneath my neck And the ocean extending her arms For me to quietly take Before I go, before I am gone With the maiden of the night Before I know that the colours of rainbow Are seven sins of white…
Let me fall now, no Let me fade away instead I am tired of being ever alone Of being always afraid
I was a fool to grapple with the dark, you know, A fool to light my heart on fire A fool to eat the wounded ashes To taste the honey of that sweet desire
I was blind with my eyes open Blind to the water rising around my waist Blind to see that I with my words Was no different than the rest
So here I am now, here, A face amongst other faces: All fools condemned henceforth To die; by hanging on her tresses
I should have known it, I should have For it was no secret after all That there was magic in her voice And that it was a siren’s call
It was this damned dream, you see, To be together in the end So surreal that I forgot It was all make-believe, a pretend
I am going now, I am gone There are other lovers in the line They ask me if she is a goddess And I answer: Yes, if the Devil’s Divine…
I listen to the clatter Rolling coins Gasping through cracks Of fractured philosophy In this modern world writ with Make believe merchandise Life lived through litmus paper Chemical imbalance Anarchy in equation Feather dust in vacuum weighing same as the sun Candles upon cake, wax trees, Forest of flames, ages incinerate: Gullible times, marzipan issues souring into Phrases describing sunlight through trees unlike sunlight through trees Anything but the obvious, the immutable Sieved eyes and beetle brain Taking over photosynthesis Bottled chimera, disco dreams Autumn in lungs Coughing art; blood on canvas, dotted design Cerise constellation simplified by Binary prophets Dripping tap, blocked sink, dim streetlight, ivy on the roof, dust on the doormat, average grades, loose socks, society on chemo, Syrian seizures, Africa and Ebola, avalanche on Everest, Anthill, beehive, New York, Mumbai Sunrise at six, Sunset at seven Coconuts, candles and carpets for heaven Rubber tires on tarmac Plastic skin LED hearts Tears on screen Protein pronouns, varicose verbs Multinational menagerie of Lego world Digitally distilled with castrated cause Packeted products: for all flaws Barcoded breaths Beginners beware This land of the dead is alive on prayer.
I know you don’t have to listen To all that I have to say And to be true I am just talking To myself everyday It’s sad, I know: To see myself smile And even the reflection To return it Only once in a while…
